It’s almost 2am. I have not been sleeping well lately and it’s not a mystery why I’ve been having sleepless nights. Let’s just say there is a decision that is being made that will affect my life greatly. I’ve been waiting for this decision now for over 5 weeks and I just heard that I will find out tomorrow. The anxiety has really been killing me. I’ve been trying my best to stay positive and put it in the back of my mind like everyone has suggested….but, when it comes down to it, it’s easier said than done. I have been living with all of these strong pent up emotions with no outlet that relieves my anxiety. Even my prescribed anxiety medicine isn’t working. All I can do is hope for the best and come to terms with whatever outcome I receive. I have to accept the unknown. I have to accept that G-d has a master plan for me. I will only be dealt what I can handle. I am going to try and lay down again. Looking forward to the weekend.